That last post. I certainly didn't take the comment to heart. I thought it was awesome. But I just realized that I hadn't updated at all this month and was told this weekend that it seemed like that was a cause to quit. Not the case.
I've been really really busy, lately. With my day job. Nothing fun or socially productive I'm afraid. I thought after CMJ things would get easier, but the exact opposite happened. I've actually been listening to a lot of music lately, tho. A lot more than I was during my official blog break. Been getting tipped to a lot of these upcoming album leaks. Trying for a head start on 2007, since the media saturation of the billions of 2006 albums did figure 8's and crisscrosses around my head. But I'm listening more. I'm just having a hard time finding the time or the motivation to write about it. It has always taken me a long time to write even the simplest posts, which makes me a lousy blogger by definition I suppose, but for me to convince myself that what I've written is something that hasn't already been said a hundred times is tough. I find myself second guessing what I start to write fairly often and I've actually written and buried several posts about halfway through over the last few weeks. I also noticed that the labels have found out about hype machine and elbo.ws, so posting leaked tracks is sort of pointless cause they make you take it down pretty quick. I'm thinking about sending those sites an email to take me off the grid, so I've got a little more flexibility. Nothing against them, but I never saw this site as an MP3 resource, and I could care less about the people who come here just for the songs. I'd take 50 readers and 50 comments per post over what there is now.
Tomorrow or the next day I'm gonna post my year end NY music wrapup on Gothamist. I don't think they're very happy with me over there, since I pretty much stopped writing live show reviews. I just couldn't do it any longer. I was never good at the formal review. I don't have the spine to shit on a band who I don't think was very good,
and I don't think a can ever remove myself from the post, since all I
know about music is how it personally effects me. It's somewhat easier
to ramble on here about how I feel about something, but to speak as a
'We' never felt right, even tho I was doing the reviews from a first person singular voice. I just want to tell stories, not implicitly explain to someone what I think. Anyway, this year end post, if I ever finish it, it's gonna turn out to be the longest thing I've written in a while and it's taking me for fucking ever to get anything down.
I'm taking a real vacation between Xmas and NYE. My first non-music vacation in something like 3 years and I can't wait. I keep on picking future deadlines for me to snap out of my blogger funk and nothing's really worked yet, but I'm hoping a week in Prague and a New Year will finally do the trick.
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